If anyone had ever recognized me or told anyone about my secret life, I was terrified I'd be ostracized. My sexual experience was limited to a couple of quick blowjobs in alleyways with older men I'd met on the Internet. I was only 19 and terrified of what my friends or family would think if they found out I preferred the company of men. I was still in the closet at this stage in my life. After much searching I'd found one, and after I'd supplied them with a medical certificate clearing me of any diseases I was free to go along.
I'd heard of them online in gay chat rooms, these mysterious places men went for casual sex. Steam billowed all around me, condensing across my body, hiding the sweat I was pouring from my nervousness. I leaned back against the damp wood of the bench.